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周杰伦

说着笑着的午后
钟声一直在停留
风声静静躺着在诱惑
我一个人在角落
没有你陪伴的我
连寂寞都笑我太堕落
广场旁边的烟囱
烟雾弥漫你面容
我悄悄背颂你的温柔
喝着加温后的啤酒
这样唯美的镜头
是否只存在故事之中
在你的身后时间把过去带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索
回忆不放手
好想再跟你牵着手
牵着你给我的温柔
哭过以后眼泪还是不停的流
雨下过之后街角出现彩虹
泪流干之后又彩虹

one last nice song!
secret confession:i really like 周杰伦!

www.myhappylemon.blogspot.com
is ready! i really hate the currentblog url.
haha! okay. thats about all.
cant wait to meet my friends! (:

that was the last picture taken on the way to shanghai airport.
tabao lilian eggtarts for my sisters! 18 eggtarts! haha. but very nice lei (:
I AM BACK IN SINGAPORE!

everything fits in so perfectly
as in, it all feels the same you know.
everything is the same.

it feels like the whole gip shanghai thing was a dream,
and i just woke up from my slp!
like OMG, it doesnt feel that i was away for half a yr, but that
I WAS JUST WATCHING TV YEST!

the bed was so comfortable la.
SERIOUSLY! ((:
cos we got so used to slping on china bed. which has ehh. very hard to describe. no spring one that kind. we also used lousy bedsheets. the one at home is like FWAH!




i accomplish so much in one day.
i went to eat my aunty laksa in the morning, to the temple.
then to ah ma hse, eat her dumpling, then go marina sqaure cut hair (the guy who help me get my hair wash is like SO HANDSOME LA!! HAHA) then we went suntec for a while, back to raffles city, had shukudo for dinner, then to amk hub then to the pasar malam out there! had COLD bubble tea, coconut jelly, taiwan crispy chicken!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

so happy to be back!
anyway my luggage is like FREAKING HEAVY.
we got fine. like we extended from 20kg to 35kg cos we are students and stuff,
and end up i still exceed 10kg! got to take near 150sg lo.
before i came back, i still send back 16kg of stuff plus 1 huge luggage that my mother brought back for me when she came over! FWAH! scarrry lei.

my ahgong and ahma so happy i bot them stuff la.
although my ah gong cant see already, but still, he quite kanchiong over the shirt i bought him. haha! (:




above is the VERY TALL china man in my company.
his name is XIAO TAO! very nice guy. he only 2 yrs older than me can
its been a long time since i feel so tinny! (:

its good to see everybody again.
(i am yet to see everybody, but some)
I CANT WAIT TO SEE ALL MY FRIENDS AGAIN! (:

picture of the album itself!
of course i neva put the 3 ugly duckling pictures.
shall leave it for special highlight for people who get to see the real album itself. haha (: its WAY TOO DISGUSTING!










my mother say the pictures very "TIONG"
then i say "GOT MEH?"
then she say "MAYBE YOU STAY THERE TOO LONG, UR TASTE ALSO CHANGE ALREADY!"
FWAH!!!!

i am not done with the post, but just for junmin, i posting it up now.
JIAYOU TO UR WORK! (:
2 more days!

hello! u might be wondering who issit.
but ITS ME!
photographs from the photoshoot. they complete the whole thing plus and album and such for me in such a week! so happy!
the first picture is my album cover page! i like this white colour series.
i think its looks beta on the book!









this is the cool picture!
quite cool la uh. haha
good attempt
but since these photos are the unedited version, the safety pin can still be seen somehow. hais





the cheong sum is suppose to be yellow in colour
but the soft copy that the person gave me its these colours.
i am so going to call to complain and get the yellow one.
cos i really like it!
if u see further away from the screen, i think i dun look that fat. haha





korean!
the hair abit kok.
i wore a wig, then theey tie it up behind.
but if u look long enough, its not that bad afterall!
but my FACE VERY ROUND.





this is the girly one, with the flower thing.
the fake hair.. damn cool rite.
hahaha!
i think i look my mama in her wedding album! haha





as for the bad photo!
it reaally turn out VERY BAD.
haha i wont post it online, in case people print and paste it on their door to PI XIE. budden those who get to see the ablum will still get to see it. haha.

4 more days before i am back to SINGAPORE! ((:

i realise that there are lots of nice "chill out" place in shanghai!
at cheaper price than sg! as in i bet its much more expensive to experience that in singapore lo! i want to try more! but hais, not enough money, not enough friends with similar desires as me and not enough time!











how come i got such a small head in the picture? EAW


nice view! but there is construction going on nearby so not as fantastic.
but its niceee! there are several others restaurant that are of similar concept at that area, but since its recommended, so i sort of tag along (and psycho jasmine to go too) zhenming! haha (:



and i was saying that that place really is a place for rainbow sisters to hang out, just like our experience in bliss! dun worry! i will be back and lets look for places similar to this!
below is the picture of the bar downstairs at 5th floor!


okie done!
i will post more pictures on facebook!
i am eating good food everyday. one last for all the nice food that i like! (:

just came back from bluefrog!
good service sia! big portions of food!!
SHIOK!
one for one drink!
and they have 100 differnet types of shots. and one of them name as "lee kuan yew"
will post the pictures and stuff in the next post! :)

8 more days!

haha. below is a mini preview of the super hiao photo shoot that i went. haha
it comes with a 12 inch album (like wedding kind) and a 7 inch one. haha
heavy make up can. attach for layers of fake eye lashes.
i dun look like myself.
this is taken from quite far. i tried to zoom, there wasnt much time to take pictures of myself. cos its damn werid. alot of people ard and the intervals are short! i wore the cheongsum. yellow one! very nice lei. i also wore the korean and others. i wore a WIG! acuatlly not WIG but many WIGS! black long hair curly one also have. haha. very fun acutally. i will get the album! so pls remind me to show u when its out although i think that.. haha. xiong duo ji shao! haha (:



self taken in the lift!
so cool! they just came back from zoo. thats why they are in casual shorts.
look at davina shorts. roxy i think. good quality. cheap and good. not exactly cheap budden cheaper than original when u have the original goods. haha



self taken picture at nanjing dong road!
last few moments here.
we stood there for a few mins to admire the view and take the last few looks!



my mother ask me to stop blogging post.
she say she read also bored. so in case my friends can bored, she ask me to STOP IT!
hahaha. she is my fan u knw! haha
but HELLO! its my blog, i blog for me to say things, not for publicity or to provide entertainment value only. got ups and down one k!

10 more days!
i am so broke! but i need to eat so many things before i go back!
its been rather nice here. experience a hell lot here!
i hope to have the chance to try that in other countries too! :)
but i think chances are VERY LOW!

so yar!
i went for a sushi buffet that day!
SO GOOD LAR! for $22sg! it so worth it!
its a matter of whether u can order everythign lo! u can order the WHOLE MENU!
WA! i just regret that i didnt pace myself good enough lA!
I COULD HAVE EATEN MORE TEMPURASSSSSSS! (:

so U KNW WHAT!
since we forget to bring our cameras to record the exciting episode of my food life,
that just means that I HAVE TO GO BACK THERE AGAIN! ((:
we have set a date to have that as for our farewell dinner in shanghai! (:
CANT WAIT! free 梅酒! niceeee (:

i think its best that we exit shanghai ASAP!
cos we just cant control and keep buying and spending! hais.
so fast yet so slow. dunno fast or slow.
basically, i dunno what i want.

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about.
Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we s ay because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do.
Some things you say cause there'scant imagine no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself.
And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

when i try so hard to keep the beautiful memories and forget the sad ones, people are not helping and in fact making things worse off.i have to repeat again about my point.

i did not deny or not admit that i wasnt to blame when the relationship went wrong.
both parties went wrong. i am not pointing fingers or wat. i wasnt the best of the best for you too. third party might be innocent in my case. but we cant deny that third party has accelerated the breakup. and who say it wasnt a gd thing? its gd, cos it provided us a reason/chance to end this, n to end his misery (:

its just questions that bothers me.
since he was so unhappy with me back then, why did it keep him so long then suddenly surface it? since he love me so much back then, why did he only break up with me when he already started out with another girl (prolly he haven get together, but they already started out with the ai mei stage and till it seem like i was the one obstructing them to proceed on), and to the extent that u decided to gave up on me and let go of my hand. since he said what i know wasnt exactly the truth, why dont he bother explaining it? but in the first place, why did he keep me away from the truth? HA! and i conclude previously that both of us didnt handle it well cos its our first timme, and we make mistakes so here it is. we are both still learning

it all comes down to the fact that he no longer feel for me.
he no longer want to protect me but somebody else.
he no longer will be the one, there for me.
cheering me on, making me smile anymore
he no longer see the future with me.
he no longer care for me.
he is no longer mine.

do u rem the things we did?
how come u are able to move on so easily?
how come u are able to watch movie or go dating with other girls other than me, holding other hands, sharing ur life with them? wont u feel weird?
the fact that u are happily dating makes me feel worse cos i seem to be kick really far away from ur world.
how come u are able to let go and still live like nothing went wrong and to adapt well?
do u even rem me?
all this, are the questions that i have.
NO. i do not need ans for these cos it doesnt matter anymore.cause he is no longer mine and that maybe he dont care, or maybe i have hurt him enough by writing angry post about him and stuff.
he said it was a difficult time for him too.
but since i am not in his shoe, i cant imagine how it can be worse than me.
"nothing stay constant in my life" i rem wat he said

but still.after all these.
i will still try to believe what u told me on the phone for 3hrs.
cos i am doing it for u and also for myself.to be able to let go with a peaceful heart
hope you wont do things that make me feel that i am wasting all these effort.

i do not care what u tell others about me.
i do not care how u try to convince others that we werent meant to be. cos i still believe we did spend a 2.5 gd quality and happy relationship together!
i do not care that u tell others how unhappy u were with me ever since u started working but yet you surprise me with a hellokitty cake after your late night work.
i do not care that u tell others that we had problems.
i do not care cause THEY DONT EVEN KNOW ME.or even US.
they werent part of OUR LIFE at all.
so who are they to judge and comment.
(okay, this part sounds like the song "my happy ending")
but the song it so true to me.

i totally hate myself for writing about this issue again.
but then again. i just cant keep it but need to type it out.
i do not expect anyone to feel angry for me, or for him or wat.
i just need to get this OUT OF MY MIND BY TYPING IT OUT.
i am glad that i went for a jog .. felt so much better! it's really effective.

and VANESSA! i receive ur card and the story that u've shared with me!

"you know before butterfly becomes what they are, they have to go through a period of struggle out of their cocoon, before they can come out to be their beautiful form. this struggle is very tough, cos the hole is very small. they have to squeeze through. scientist have tried the enlarge the hole to help the butterflies to come out easier, but the butterflies who came out were not as pretty as those who wrnt through the stuggle. they were either handicapped, one winged, or their colours were not as bright."

those who went through this difficult period, will really move out stronger and more beautiful! and since so many have done this before. i am sure i can do it too. and the same story can apply to many case, to people who are meeting with difficulties in their life! (:

i am a girl who is dealing with a breakup recently and i just need time to re-adjust and to stop blogging about these. so pardon me if i got anyone angry upon this post
and i am acutally rather excited for my future.
like what others say:

If you have lost your job/someone recently, that's not the end of you. It is only a temporary set back. It may even be an opportunity to pursue your dream you never had never find time to do so in the past. Or you may have missed out on a job/someone opportunity that would have kept you employed/happyily attached.

haha.
see the light!
everybody's exam coming to an end!
its also time for me to be back!
SO HAPPY! I CANT WAIT! ((:

was thinking whether its a good idea to sell these pouches back to singapore.
its not authentic stuff but it looks just as good.
i will post the pictures up on www.myhappylemon.blogspot.com SOON
which is going to be my new blog.
would anybody be interested to buy those coin pouches for $8.80? (: